I just made a 21 slide power point asking my parents if josh can stay for a week in July
two years of long distance relationship
this power point better work!

I love everything about a person I’ve never met. I love his stupid face and his stupid eyes and his stupid accent and the stupid way he laughs and the stupid way he makes me smile and the stupid way he makes me happy. He is the the worst thing that’s happened to me but also the best. I love his handsome face and his gorgeous eyes and his adorable accent and the lovely way he laughs and the brilliant way he makes me smile and the innocent way he makes me happy. I love him I love him I love him I love him.

this song is actually my love life

Sad Beautiful Tragic - Taylor Swift

Long handwritten note, deep in your pocket
Words, how little they mean, when they’re a little too late
I stood right by the tracks, your face in a locket
Good girls, hopeful they’ll be and lonely will wait

We had a beautiful magic love affair
What a sad beautiful tragic love affair

In dreams, I meet you in long conversation
We both wake in lonely beds, and different cities
And time is taking its sweet time erasing you
And you’ve got your demons and darling they all look like me

Cause we had a beautiful magic love affair
What a sad beautiful tragic love affair

Distance, tire me, break down, fighting
Silence, this train runs off its tracks
Kiss me, try to fix it, would you just try to listen
Hang up, give up, for the life of us we can’t get it back

A beautiful magic love affair
What a sad beautiful tragic, beautiful tragic, beautiful
What we had, a beautiful magic love affair
What a sad beautiful tragic love affair
We had a beautiful magic love affair
What a sad beautiful tragic love affair

Josh’s ex just tweeted how she hated americans because she assumed some of my tweets were about her

ok

O K 

  • Me: ew the kids in my neighborhood are ridiculous
  • Josh: haha you hate everyone!
  • Me: .......
  • Josh: ......
  • Me: basically

I’m really really hoping that I will be able to meet Josh in April. I haven’t asked my parents yet because I’m waiting until he has a bit of money saved so my parents know we’re both serious. 

But April really isn’t that far away, so I’m starting to make a scrapbook of me and Josh’s relationship. I’m printing out pictures of us on skype and writing inside jokes and such in it. I’m gonna give it to him the day we meet c:

I’m also just printing out some cute pictures I’ve taken to send to him just so he can keep up with how it is over here! 

Gosh, April better happen. <3

I have got to stop watching long distance meeting videos.

don’t mind me I’m just over here sobbing.

I am so scared to open myself up to you. I’ve done this with so many people, but with you…… it’s all so different. I’m actually scared to lose you. With the others I didn’t care all that much. But with you I just wont know what to do with myself if you leave me. I want to do this, and I feel like I need to. I’m just so scared.

Josh is serious about visiting me in April. <3

About to skype Josh cksagkdhjdhsafldjfkj c:

So my ex boyfriend is in a long distance with a girl a few states away and they met today :cccccccccccccccccccccc ugh he gets to meet his long distance girlfriend of like 6 months but I can’t meet my long distance ( semi boyfriend ish guy in my life ) of a year and a half. SDFGHkljdskljfhjkldsgnjlk this makes me sad

The typical love letter to the the typical person you miss on a typical day.

Dear You,

What can I say? You’ve got me again. Our relationship changes like the weather. We see other people, but we always come back to each other. It’s kinda weird and kinda crazy, honestly. I don’t think normal relationships are supposed to function the way ours does. We hurt each other too much. We make each other mad too much. We make each other cry too much. But we also love each other too much to not care and to not come back. So, once again you and her have broken up and you can finally talk to me again. The fact that she made you stop talking to me was a bit ridiculous, really. You know in all the love movies how they have the cliche reunited run and hug thing? I feel like that’s what it’s like when we start talking. It’s like we’ve been apart for so long and we are finally together again. Obviously we aren’t physically together, seeing that you live across the Atlantic ocean and all, but you know what I mean. 

I know we have both lost some feelings for each other. I know that you don’t think about me as much as you used to do, but it’s the little things that make me know that you still love me. The fact that you still wear the bracelet I sent you makes me so happy. It’s like I’m kinda sorta with you all day long. (: Although we aren’t “in a relationship”, we can talk now. We can be civil and enjoy each other. That makes me happy. That comforts me more than anyone will know. 

I can’t help but smile when I see your name pop up on my ipod or facebook. My heart skips a beat and even though you piss me off more than the usual person, I love you to death. I can’t wait to meet you and hug you and kiss that gorgeous face of yours. These past 8 months, I’ve been trying to tell myself that I was over you. But I’m not. Yes, I will date other people most likely. But no, I will never be over you because I truly love you. I care about you too much to just forget about you. So even if I end up falling inlove with someone else, and I spend the rest of my life with them; I will always love you. You’ve taken up a huge part of my life and I wouldn’t trade in any of the letters, skype dates, or messages for anything. Well maybe I would trade them in for Shia Labeouf. ;)

I love you lots and lots. Thanks for coming back. Thanks for not forgetting about me.

xxoo

Lindsay <3

This is just me venting. Feel free to scroll past this.

This whole summer I have been a-okay with being single. After Kendrick broke up with me I was like ehh it’s whatever. I’ve been doing my own thing, hanging out with friends, just living life. I didn’t have time to think about a relationship. Sure, I read some romance novels, and they did make me feel the ” oh man can this please happen to me already.” But that feeling lasted for about an hour, then I was YAY I’M SINGLE again. BUT, maybe like two or three days ago, I woke up and I was just like ” wow I really hate being single. ” And I don’t think it’s the fact that I don’t have a romantic relationship with anyone. It’s just the fact that I don’t have someone here in Georgia who I can be really close with. My best friend lives in Canada, the only boy I thought I loved lives in England, and I’m stuck in the states. Yes, I am tired of not being in a relationship. but it’s more I’m tired of not being in relationships , friendships and romantic ones, with people who actually live here. BEFORE MY FRIENDS BITCH ME OUT ~  I do have friends here like Lily, Kenzie, Rachel, Erin, and Jessie. But It’s like…..i don’t know how to explain this, really. I guess most of the people I hangout with all have the same interests, and I only share one or two. As we all got older, they all liked the same things and I kinda went a different way. We can all hang out, but I just don’t fit in with them that much anymore. I love them all TO DEATH and I would never trade them in for anyone, I just would like to add to the people I hangout with. Possibly people who share the same interests as me. ~~~ Okay but the whole relationship thing. Cause I kinda got off topic with the friends thing. Okay, I pretty much want a relationship really bad. When I started feeling this way I thought it would just go away through out the day, but I’ve been feeling this way for like 3 days, and I feel lonely and weird and i don’t know. I have feelings for someone but I can’t tell them and it sucks so much. Maybe I wont have these same feelings once school starts, but I don’t know. 

SORRY FOR JUST RAMBLING ON YOU REALLY DON’T HAVE TO READ THIS I JUST WANTED TO SAY IT CAUSE IT’S BEEN BUGGING ME OKAY YEAH IT MIGHT NOW MAKE SENSE I’M SORRY.

uhm….. i may or may not have lost the first letter Josh ever sent me………

Josh still wears the bracelet I sent him. :’)

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